2 Gao ertai hundred days behind bars

 Thank God, power outages are frequent. The four years of peace-building results of lovely, like a big soft blanket, from time to time we will wrap. That night I fell asleep, and dreamed of being the dogs chase, fled to an old House, Song Shen Liang hop seize large hanging in the air. doggery general rush to the water covered the ground, I hope all carry spectacle, no sound. Titicaca Titicaca, made a sudden impact beams, a me Xia Xing. is power. Armed shoes stepped on board the air corridor, was issued the same sound. I gasped, heart Mengtiao, dry throat Shezao, for a long time can not be calm. suddenly see that corner there is light under the eaves When the sky can not see a quiet month marks slightly, shyly hiding behind the clouds and the iron lattice, as if afraid of this hideous building like, secretly to greet me. No matter how I change the angle, are see it all, and it therefore seems distant and deep. until the eyes accustomed to the darkness, I found the small room is full of fighting it a touch of Seiki. crushing fuzzy spot, speckled my bed, but also shed In other prisoners sleeping face, so gentle and serene. It follows my childhood home of hills, homes and. In the vast wilderness of the Northwest, soothe pain Kulie my mind. It was with me and the rain, walking too distant and confused way. Countless times wandering in our family bed, the general pattern of shadows cast, sometimes flickering shadows hh long, long time I have not seen it. And now, it is still so round, so soft, so fresh and pure. as representatives of that lost all the warmth and the fantasy, the world's vast and beautiful, this isolated cave tomb insulation, came to see me. a dazzling white light, a sudden slip walls. That searchlight, I lost my eyesight. air corridors from far and near footsteps,Discount UGG boots, mixed dark and quiet and rapid. a few pieces of a flashlight according to the same time down, while shaking. Who is next to moan a little, rolled over, mutters What word, that is balderdash. until I restore vision, look at the moon, it has deeper hiding behind the iron lattice, but still linger on, rest assured that we do not seem to like. even for a moment, calls, and rigid insulated cold walls of rough encirclement ruthlessly over the line again I tensile structures embedded in them. back that corner of the sky, only the dim light, draw a black base with a vertical railings. sixteen, sing me a pity in this life is not singing. I have always loved music, loved to sing. often Chezhuobozi whooped, recruit people too. big up fear of shame, not sing. sometimes sing herself, a few familiar childhood songs, will feel the good times that have long since vanished, along with various details and smell it all come alive at once. I remember the Japanese surrender was I, our family singing a song, there are a few words, very deep impression: the mountains and plains Laughter is the wave of high population Zhang, tears, such as Wang when adults sing, I see that they are really laughing hypertonic mouth, tears, such as Wang. Even if a small and naive, it was also a deeply moving. Some of my friends, sing very well, I'm envious. they express those feelings, I have, but I do not carry. just like wild animals can not speak, that time could only howl. But the beast's howl, do not The beast can understand, I howl, no one can understand. Dunhuang during the Cultural Revolution, I, and a few peers in the bullpen with plowing, turned over turned over the day,UGG boots clearance, I do not know how to to sing: the sun is still down tomorrow climb / flowers is still the same next year, thanks to open / beautiful bird fly without it anyway / my youth as a small black child does not come back hh is sung. neighboring one, the former director of the Secretary of the Lee Yongning in turn. fine high-lean like a bow, he straightened up slowly diffuse to me exclaimed, Gao ertai, that piece of land with the sickle, see? see I said, why? he said you used to kill me, and I really can not stand it! the plot of land, he said, is the history of the archaeological group weixiang In turn, he answered them, do not take, do not take away, and then sing along, and I use it suicide . then, from which a colleague or student does not hear my voice. prison, the book did not report, to prohibit any form of entertainment. inmates are sometimes gather together to sing the song quietly. mostly pop songs; thinks is right, many good / what day to return to my home / ah, Qiu ditch which, Abies Kong hh. Wenzhou Zhou sour, a son complained tune. is said to be the film used. What is more, as the big guy that landscape ever grim, thin as a skeleton with those of the old and weak form with soul-stirring, I think sometimes absurd, sometimes they feel sad, sometimes singing moved into deep sorrow. in time to miss his wife, listening to People sang from the resonant immediately. In Nanjing, a jail is a window. singing, do not know the door closed there is no police, are nervous. where the equipment, more modern, the armed police down at the top looking down, jail and patios at a glance. But they see us, we will see them. Without them, they can sing more comfortable. daybreak, leading to the courtyard of the jail door opened. as long as it does not rain, most of the time of the day, I have in the courtyard, walk along the wall. seven steps on a curve, a seven-step Shui crossbow, a few laps to go clockwise, counterclockwise direction a few times, ten square meters of courtyard, never could not finish. I walked, I sometimes feel like a cage in his wolf. I walked, unwittingly, blurting out to sing two songs: We have not seen in other countries can be free to breathe this is popular on college campuses fifties Soviet songs. At that time members of our class style called Tang Suqin, especially songs like the Soviet Union taught us a lot, but then I forgot. do not know how, This Huer has run out. memory of the resurrection is unconscious, the lyrics have no choice. as the flag generation grew up under, and no choice but to remember what to sing about. including operas and quotations from songs, included in the class enemies , it will be much easier to sing. Pain is a poison, singing the role of detoxification. no matter how familiar the song, sung here and now; had a strange experience, even those where loudspeakers broadcast repeatedly every day, again and again, listening to get a thick ear have played a cocoon, has long been deaf to the song, singing here and now, there are a cordial, a novelty. across the plains, over mountains Pentium across the Yellow and Yangtze rivers vast and beautiful land is the home of our dear Riding the wings of song, over big walls, over the bloodstained that 9.6 million square kilometers of land, and that the common people of all ethnic groups in prisons, just as with damaged hands, stroking a loved black and blue. sometimes shameful nose and an acid, like a fragile little girl nervous. This psychological imbalance under special circumstances, such cognitive and emotional understanding of a variety of efforts to imagine a mechanism unusual combination, the same hysteria. But after the attack, human health than before . Gradually this attack, almost a physical need. the more the greater courage to sing, was run into the number of police patrolling the more, and finally the microphone warning: loud noise is a violation of prison regulations. do not stop we must investigate it! can not sing aloud, sing in my heart. people can see my lower right of the five fingers, followed by the one of a shaking, no sound: chew Qiu, chew chew hate hate hate people to be strong to swallow germination This is the model operas, had never sung, but also do not know how to sing again. song of nature, is distributed to outward. intrusion into, but even worse, not as silent. back to silence, to return alone, I still in that little courtyard, turning endless circle. Seventeen to see fairy patio door to the prison compound, there is a meal in the small square hole, about as big as the size of thirty open book. there was a small wooden door, the first door on the outside. between the door and door, with the gap. eyes close to the seam, could see the outside, the outside is a narrow flower bed. garden on the other side, nearly ten meters away, is another row Jian The back wall of the room. from the cracks and see the height of the lower wall, which the head and the other end. but you can see in the higher branches of the flower garden. mostly very ordinary flower, chrysanthemum, rose, begonia of class. rainy day flowers falls, do not see much. sunny flower is good, I often face close to the door, look to open in late fall on the concrete wall background stray. Xin Jiaxuan poem Write the pastoral scenery. Here in the prison courtyard is often empty. Though separated by doors, flower recently, only I only. outwards from the crack, look, pay attention to the back of the movement. patrol armed police to go outdated, and some whether you, some will call out in the above, He walked again, have nothing. What would have only flowers, why not take a look. sometimes two or three gardeners, spraying pesticides to weed ripper pruning. gardener is already sentenced prisoners out of jail they can enjoy sun and wind, and the company of flowers and trees, I am envious. Ouyang Xiu said, carefree effort, I think in 2083 the playing a larger battle graves in the game. share of detached difficult than Zhuangzi. I think. If they chip in writing, might have a kind of nor existentialism. That day, they opened a small square hole of delivery, to a rubber tubing into the room, loudly ordered us to take it on the faucet in the courtyard. I know that this is pouring water in winter. a rare opportunity, take a good lead, I immediately ran to the door, her face close to the water pipes, a small square hole in the open looking out. three gods sitting on the ground, smoking, chatting, milling iron with mud who, freely cross in the feet. the wind blowing their spit tobacco chaos, drifting in all directions, like Xian Qi. one of them saw the hole inside me snapped immediately shouted, not allowed to see! drink stop peg hole, see I did not go more sharply to drink. then ran from the outside to see openings posted, and asked me if I was to life, and how dare undermine prison regulations? forget is scum it? forget you in what place? hh case rebuke about ten minutes, until the top has been armed, ordered him not allowed to loud noise, stopped, and walked away. It is said that at Auschwitz and 特莱勃林卡, some people develop a habit of imitating the Gestapo, is called for mental alienation. I used to write something once quoted. Now it seems, mainly is not alienation, but of human nature. armed police are not excited, because he is the law. immortals excited because he wants people. like dwarf met more than their shorter who would like to show your own tall. dust heart of a dynamic, gods to descend to the. eighteen, studied political science fifty, sixty years of Chinese people, whether in there, or on the outside, every day should be There are more than four months twice. The first is to study Jiang's National Day speech. the prison yard and every jail wall, there is a microphone. usually mute the spider's web covered with dust. occasionally ring look, after a burst of noise warning about what to inform about what the National Day that day, radio address, completion of the prison informed learning. discussion questions are: 1, Why the Chinese Communist Party is the great, glorious, right? 2, why is that only socialism can save China? 3, why must adhere to the Four Cardinal Principles and combat bourgeois liberalization? 4, why is that stability overrides everything else, must be firmly suppressed counter-revolutionary rebellion? but notice, no specific arrangements, the matter dropped. The second time was two One night after April, when the discipline to lock the second door, a learning materials distributed to each of us, and a notebook, called the study and discussion, discussion questions, and last the same. that each person must speak, speak to record, record must be turned over. material is copied, from the layout view, from the These dregs of society people want us to strengthen the political enemies of learning, said the study should be repeated ten days. learning forms do not teach a person to listen to everyone read and then discuss. four decades, both inside and outside the case. could not move the thought of ten days , I worry. but two days later, a microphone and sound, and called cleaning, cobweb to clear the ground to wash, scrape the moss to peel. teach them to check, after cleaning, said toothbrush toothpaste should be placed neatly basin dishes . night to lock the door when we called up tomorrow, everything should remain the same. the next day to open the door, called the quilt neatly folded, after breakfast another point of view, this right to inspection directorate, told us to sit upright, learning, file to bring it in the hands of my way listen and watch. We did so several times, no one has come to sit and wait, all of a sudden rush of a discipline came from the air corridor, hurried toward the following to say, come here , fast! Liu Jun pick up the learning materials so read up and study materials that we won it sounds. Several woolen uniforms of the old man across the Yellow River, followed by a large group, walk slowly from above. had done, and put down material, holding his arms stretched thin: said: ah ah ah! fat, said something quietly, not far away miles. nineteenth, martial arts room supervisor we have a dictionary, Liu Jun, and I get nothing to looking through, very helpful. his life reading. is not school, they only happiness. What can be hand, studying what, assorted. over time, actually have little knowledge, a little idea. write it down, and will have little article. article, some buildings, I will not read. often by half or one third of its pronunciation, such as convenient and practical. but I only speak, inevitably white. students every loose lips autumn, usually tight-lipped, to hide the ugly. was on the podium, only to also make full use of the board of the top things. most of the pressure of time , I read through this several times repeated the dictionary. this out will not do, does make a lot of their own shortcomings, many of the defects. childhood his father taught calligraphy learning, knowledge bones, identified Zhongding , recognized Cursive, I nervous. went on to art schools, teach only Western painting, the line broke. The reading of the dictionary, all the text of the radical, total grouped together, to find out that things like shape , shape the sound, knowing other ancient and modern Interchangeable change the rules, and then contact a child of the G rubbings, the reading on, know that essays are each is a learned person, system each and all there is, the point scheme has a long, suddenly through. know that the study of calligraphy will be to this can only arbitrary without transgressing, insect-free for Xunzhangzhaiju old carving. relapse, there has been interest in writing. Please help with the monitoring, so did you get a meal for the old brush. wash, and dip water, the wall Taihen not everywhere, writes in the semi-temporary semi-invasive Changshuo to stone drum. willful and for, the final chapter has not become a Cursive, Huai Su that (see the a few days, brush bald, bitterly full length. But I so find, you can use with a ballpoint pen on paper to write Cursive to Notepad. fellow police do not know, thought I was practicing calligraphy, and I was able to accumulate a little He has been claiming to be student leader, I'm from the school to understand the student movement, I asked a few questions, I know he is not. I did not say I know, but he knows I know, know that people are aware, and later said the truth. Despite the mood, always hurt, he has reason to hate me. I told him not to learn calligraphy, learn useless. brush and inconvenient. Moreover word reform, simplified buildings from left to right horizontally, has not suitable for writing with a brush. I say is good things. He said, you now with a ballpoint pen, is not still writing? I know what to say, he thought I was not taught. martial arts since childhood, he said, was a seasoned Emei true mass, Peru do not show, but you can teach me in exchange I taught him calligraphy, said a row to do a few moves and said the usefulness of each action changes and chicken taboo, as if the door fine. He Leshan, home in Mount Emei, and said What really backing a bit uncertain. I want to learn, so I agreed to teach him, let him first clinical posts. He asked Chao to Mao Bianzhi ink brush did you get there a turn, learn from him arms. but the more the more I learn, is all show, and not practical. suggested a contest, knocking him out. even I can beat this martial art, learn what is the use!! No, it is useful of which pass the time. twenty-first trial of a September morning, jail door rattle and clatter away, parents came Chao Yin a straight face. as usual, micro Tuozhe Bei, hands behind, in the room turned around, did not say a word, temporary leave home, and turned toward me over the head slightly to the side of a shake out. This is called I followed him out. He locked the door when, pointed his finger in the ground, This is me standing there waiting. lock the door, a swing, let me walk in front, he followed. to where to turn, I look back at him, he went in the direction to the efforts of a Nuzui . In the office building the detention center in the office, he handed me two police officers handling the case. and then come up with a big book, so that they sign, and he himself signed. I cast a glance of the book, my name back, write the years on, some sort of, handling of people and so on. When the trial completed the return, but also signed a word. the original arraignment guilty to handling cases, as to the detention center by things, by and also to be registered. pre-trial chamber with Nanjing, almost, just a little bigger, if the platform is not only the classroom desks. prisoners under the seat next to the podium, stood a few folding chairs. the middle of the coffee table, a tea and cigarettes. sat two policemen, were fifty or sixty years old. there are to Nanjing with my Luoxing Yan. He smiled and stood up, said Mr. Gao, sit down. I sit down, want to move the stool, but the move does not move. looking down, only to find that it is planted the concrete floor of the. Lo asked pumping smoke, drink some tea to say pumping. Do not worry, we casually chat. He pointed to the office and signed me in the elderly that the two police say He named Ma, later called him a good horse. this person gray hair, narrow face, deep wrinkles, eyes far apart, called the Lee, older and more likely to Sixty. face flat, the nose is short, gray hair and stubby beard and thick eyebrows. big round black frame glasses, the nose is lower than the lower edge. reminds me of the owl. This few people speak, others speak, always sad to see the ground. each subsequent trial, probably true. another forty, plump, energetic, like a bear. with the old horse to the office Lidai me, it was him. He stood in front of the recorder, notepad, and pen. Lo palms facing up, the designation of a semi-circle, said the four of us, on instructions from the above command (which is the second time he said this sentence a) responsible for your problem. I asked what the problem, he said he would find out, you feel relieved. But you have to meet with us right. word, what does that mean? Luo said, we have your whereabouts, and told the teacher Pu. Pu teachers have come to Chengdu. live in the Sichuan Normal University, teaches in the Fine Arts Department. is seeking to visit him, not yet approved the above . I asked, There is also a paper folding deer, but also to the detention center. I said, what the deer? He said that since I longer. I heard you know that this is true, rest assured. He said he asked her for one, would like to bring me to see that this brings. In the past to do, who are handling the unit , very good to his family hostage, forced confessions of the fierce, stopped short of use of torture. heard enough of police brutality, and I images of the police is the instruments of torture. Otherwise, with so many intellectuals in the revolution and the revolutionary masses, but also the police do? This second kidnapping, but also instruments of torture in the Face of the police, so they are more like instruments of torture, I am more alert. constantly remind ourselves careful. be careful. I was afraid to be shot to the loss of intelligence, be careful not. I really do not thought that they would really make me worry, there is a move within the heart. But I do not trust them so. I have not forgotten all the time, they kidnapped me. in such a brutal huge following of any civilization seem a little suspicious. questioning is very general, names of origin like age, experience units have answers in the file, after Shanghai, Beijing know who know who like rambling question, answered the out will remind me who missed the so and so, that they know more than I do. not aggressive pressure, but I'm not sure why they. over let me see record signing. the record says, interrogators Li Qiming, Luoxing Yan, Mading Shou, Jie Shen recorder. Ma, Shen two took me to the detention center for return of office procedures, or Chao received. I ask the king of things brought in the police handling the case, Wang's response is that stared at me for a while. these things,UGG boots, I have not received. a little I learned later, as the three men said, the police and discipline police officers handling the case is not the same. although in the same system, when the uniform dress the same, but belong to two units, who have no control over who. in accordance with the provisions of the police handling of cases entitled interrogators brought in to be taken out or anything. regardless of what came in with, only to prison, then transferred to the prisoners by the prison authorities. The prison authorities have the right to transmit, but also have the right to detain. I thought, the state machine balance of power between the various components, elements of the democratic system. Tishen a few times, I know, it can also be Zhuanzhi machine fail-safe device. The reason is Qianxian (dictator out of power balance, is that you do not.) I did not think it is a simple brain. the twenty-first, dozens of misplaced later trial, except for a few a few exceptions, basically to two people, records, other than members of Shen Jie, sometimes nag, sometimes Luoxing Yan, sometimes Li Qiming (who, like owls), and sometimes Li Deming, a tall, thin, very cultural upbringing. talk to the atmosphere relaxed, often like a chat, content, and the case has nothing to do. On one occasion, to the Mading Shou and Chen Jie, I Speaking at the Nanjing prison fights, they laughed, Shen said, you really can not think of Mr. Ko, there was such a life experience Yeah, Ma Dingshou said head kind of person, called the prison gangsters, prisons throughout There, it is generally difficult to solve. this issue, first of all aspects of prison administration, management and investigation, is totally different. detective work, but also the same as you engage in academic research, to a large number of share data. and then classified in parallel, to Wu deposit fine, Quweicunzhen, but also to the original look of things. I said, you caught me up, is still the face I had? He said: Do you think you would have to look what is it? 2057 right, six six-gang, 2086 nerve had been alert, thinking it is cotton, too careful. Shen Jie went on to say, the whole horse can survive and eat the bitter can be much more attractive. I am more alert, and thinking that match so well,bailey UGG boots, we can see there are plans to may then be careful. I knew after his release, these are the truth. But at the time, I can not believe it. four decades, people have become accustomed standard cliches exchanges. the truth has been all but extinct, let alone in between police and prisoners. I am very careful, but confusion is a quote I hook it? language does not trap. is playing cat and mouse game? eyes are not the kind of cold. is a historical step forward? I in prison. awkward moment, Shen said, the day before yesterday, the Public Security Bureau to pump the teacher, and to send you something, inquire about your situation. We told her that you in there well, assured her. things were handed over to the warden, long. Ma said, we say that you are well, she did not worry, it is best you write your own letter to her, assured her that she has not received your letter, I am anxious. I said I wrote several letters, and how she would never receive? I said several times that brought you the letter and the things she gave me, apart from a pair of cotton-padded coat, how I have not received the same? Ma said: Really? There are possible. Detention Center have their reasons, we ask not good, so be it, you can now write, write to me. this time I do not pass them directly to the pump teacher. I said that discipline was not it? Ma said, they do not know. know are not afraid to push over the pen and paper, and said, you write it, we can wait. Then he got up, walked in from the circle to the pre-trial chamber. Shen Jie to back on a reliable, point of a cigarette, I was surprised, did not believe that such a thing. I do not believe them to chat, but not devious tactics. is not from my letter to analyze what ? is not to use my letter to obtain the trust of rain to get me from her mouth what? hh Otherwise, how dare he say horse, and stood down the sentence said, you want to see what books can also write, we bring you. I wrote a letter at the beginning of a crumpled, into his pocket and said, today I am confused mind, not write. awkward moment, Ma said, that will do. speech delay. could understand them, he a little disappointed and sad, see, Shen Jie, also a bit regrettable. Luoxing Yan to another, gave me a paper package, said to be light rain to. I wrapped into the cotton, back to the jail, opened a bag of Dutch milk powder, seal is removed after a re-seal. open as a different color, smell the smell, and my heart be suspicious , drained. but he left behind a small plastic bag, like in the future when the opportunity arises, testing it. prison to know, is the rain screen to ground into a fine powder blending of ginseng in it. investigators told her the police, prison into prohibited drugs was found to be confiscated. rain that my body is not good, ask them to help them to avoid prison, directly to me. I opened the packet to leave a taste, yes, ginseng taste. Unfortunately, has been drained. prison, I sometimes painful helmet. At one trial, Mading Shou and Chen Jie brought me to the West China Medical University Hospital to see, in the car told me that they find the doctor, is the health of well-known professors, expert on intestinal disease helmet, to the clinic to see a doctor rarely, they are two weeks ahead of schedule, the appointment register. A week later, diagnostic report came out, a mild superficial gastritis. with the previous diagnosis of Beijing Hospital (moderate atrophic helmet inflammation) are different, I suspect, the police will not let me for medical treatment, tampered with, to speak softly disease. I think, maybe, inquiries, the authority of doctors is true. between the United States after inspection, but also to prove that he is correct diagnosis. Police corrected the diagnosis of Beijing Hospital. this kind of thing, who would have thought? XXII, overall figure out what is true and what is false. very cautious, when a lot of dislocation. so after a few times, and once, suddenly a dozen policemen, all of them looking furious and angry. ; stubborn in the end a dead end the level of the fifties. such as Harvard University (invited me to lecture) What is the attempt? me to invite foreign experts to give lectures, was their common practice. someone shouted, a positive answer! I said I was banned exit, did not. It was also shouted, positive answer. Some issues, like with the It was pouring cold water, not to stir up trouble. Some people say that a positive answer. hatred of the eyes, like many ordinary flashlight beam, focused on hovering in my body. more problems with the , editorial board member list (asked when the list of editors hand letterpress printing), to go to Shanghai to meet who gave the ticket, who went to the airport pick-up, live a hotel, and who live like the details of a room , have asked to. Obviously, they know more than I do. I think I may, therefore, touch the end of their little, guess a bit, they petition the sound of millions of people march to find a silent, well I am from the crowd, what is for what. I'm not the circle of people, only because of personal friendship, editor, was attended by the book series Bianji (see helpless, off to kill nobody, is a weak link, if you catch anti-Party group, from the point of breaking the best hh. But such questioning, the number of small, two interrogation methods, can not see the signs complement each other. and so I suspect there may be conflicts within the police who, they are not evil in the evil of those at me, but evil directed at those who do not come within. does not rule out the central political and legal system and administrative system, and even high-level conflicts party system , expressed as black-box deep disagreement on that market turmoil is also possible hh is conjecture, all can not be proved. cut off from the walls of exploration in the Department, did not interfere with any of the information, but can be any Luanxiang, no on who is responsible. This is the alternative come, but also old horse and Chen Jie. horse out from the document package handed me a letter, saying that this is the teacher Pu letter to you. This is my imprisonment for the first time since received letters from home. letter , said before the letter and gave me a lot of things (with the list, there are a few I brought in Nankai University graduate thesis outline), how do not know? said I'm good, high forest in Jiangsu is also very good, can be assured. that visits matter, not been approved. frequented by the Public Security Bureau, I heard you on the inside, living better, right? that watched the TV series Xia Yan, watched to see how the detention center. He said he transferred to the Detention Center who handled the letter and what should be said, no problems, why they withheld the he did not know.