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 His cynical tone of conversation, as he said himself, his manners were always unique, different, life on Earth was holding a casual, cynical attitude, and questions to others from time to time shrugged: Better you? unable to control himself, trapped in the padded chair in the desperate hand gestures in the air. women r, because it's more in line with the principles of natural science), has its roots in prejudice, social prejudice stupid! At this time, the big guy is shut up. What to say! But you Yeah, of an orange. is not willing to quiet. a number of women in, let them as radio operator, thinking that it would stall later, but in general, in general then? What is the point? it was just sex and pornography and the like, really short-sighted, shocking! , abduction of the Council, then the man is still as in the past, is a very decent person, even high and mighty, majestic mm What the hell! and women? she lost virginity, cast aside by society, was ridiculed, and fall. Yes, fall down mm mm! This view of ethics lie? Are not the same as men fallen yet? ah, the men's actions, not the more disgraceful than women do? Hey, you say that saying! your comment it! the whole face was smug expression. Dun Boshi. He quietly, he used both hands a small bread, but down at the ground, not a word, his face is very grave. The upholstered chairs. is hanging on the ceiling of a shed lights dim in the room the faint blue glow. it starts to smoke, a short while, the ceiling on the smoke-filled. ��ɭ�ض�� said, taking in four little glass of sweet wine of France poured. by the chair, poised and looked up at lodge blue hanging lights. He pondered for a start, said: nine or twenty years old, he entered a university in the city of P, which is located in a large southern German city. He is a very pleasant young man. in front of him, no one would lose his temper. he and lively cordial and polite, all the students are really loved him. He is a handsome, tall-long youth, his face is very soft lines, lively brown eyes, curved lips are soft, his lips just started a long beard. When he hope that the black hair on top of a light-colored hat into the back of the circle, his hands in his pockets, strolled in the streets, and looked around curiously when the girls are cast to his eyes to love. when he is innocent , both physically and spiritually true. He can be a fledgling young man, has not suffered defeat, but had not really touched the hearts of women, the first thing a woman he can not find mm; the second Well a woman he can not find mm. In P town lived a girl of fourteen days scene, he naturally fall in love. He did not like most people fall in love with the waitress, but fell in love with a young actress, Wei Er Tena lady, she was at the Goethe Theatre, girls love to play the role of professionals. As the author aptly pointed out, the eye of the beholder. but really very beautiful girl; slim, a pale blond hair, a pair of devout , cheerful, hair blue eye, charming little nose, innocent and sweet mouth to sing, there are soft, round chin. He first fell in love with her face, and later to love her children and hand Yubi come. Once, when she played the role of a classical theater, he saw her exposed Yubi. Finally one day, he loved her from the people. He loved her mind, her heart, as yet unknown. love that he spent a lot of money. at least every other night, he was always the main hall at the Goethe Theatre, a place in the front seat. He often wrote to her mother for money, pains to make all kinds of absurd explanations. He lied to her. so what have justified the put. l r. quiet lyrics for this, he often sat late at night, buried dry books, only to hear the alarm clock in the small chest of drawers move monotonously to issue l r ticking sound, but the outside is the sound of faint lonely footsteps. on the chest above the throat place to start, suffering as entrenched as a stone, now the pain has become soft and wet, often with tears welling from his eyes heavy. but he was really ashamed to cry Therefore, he had words on paper pinned their grief. He used gentle poetry to express their feelings, the tone is very sad. poems that he took her to write so sweet and cute, while he was so sick tired, heart Also how much unrest. He drifted drifted far, far away land where roses and violets in the pure, the sweet happiness of being there, bunk, but his hands and feet shackled to a hh this is indeed ridiculous, who would ridicule him. how stupid these verses is simply incomprehensible, meaningless. but he loved her! he loves her! he ask ourselves, of course, felt guilty hands. It was a miserable, servile love ; he just kissed her in silence feet, (because they are so cute), or the hand of her innocence, and willing to die. As for her mouth to sing, came, the moment may suddenly imagine her lying there, his head leaning on the lovely white pillow, a sweet to slightly open mouth, while the pair of real estate broker, described the pair can not even soft blue veins are clearly visible real estate broker has put the quilt together. Then he suddenly turned around, put his face close to the pillow, cry in the dark for a long time. lovelorn when he has reached a climax. Now he is even also write poetry, and no longer want to eat anything. He then disappear acquaintances, reclusive, deep under the eyes are two black circles. He did not study hard, do not want to read. a long time ago, he bought to a photograph of her, and now he is always in front of this photograph, spaced in half asleep, burst into tears, hard to miss. One night, he sat with friends Lelin corner tavern, in front of them the cup of very good beer. Lelin is a close friend of his former school, now is the high-grade medical students. Lelin suddenly picked up the blackjack ��������һ release. l Well, Kleiner, and now you Come blew the whistle on their minds. rl to my heart? r so he no longer insisted that the things on her own the whole. Lelin shaking from head to embarrassment. l bad, and Kleiner. no way. you are not the first a man who simply inaccessible. She has always lived in his mother there. do your mother had been dead for quite some time, but even so mm or nothing can be done. is really an amazing girl. rl then you think, I hhr l Well, I think, you want hhr l hey, Le Lin! lhh Alas mm is this: Excuse me, let me be clear, I absolutely think this is the case Jiaoren tempted. you gave her a bouquet of flowers , to her gentle, polite to write a letter and ask her to show up to give you back a letter, you're waiting for something she was ready to praise himself. r He looked pale when, trembling. l, but do not mm to the to! rl Why not do? as little as forty Finney, which are willing to contribute to a servant. r, trembling is worse. l God, I hope can do it! rl where she lives now? rl mm I do not know. A fourth floor, you see, it's clear here: Irma. Vail Turner, a member of the Goethe Theatre, hh, you see, this is a very bad area. her virginity was retribution. rl Lelin, please Do not hhr l Oh, oh, forget it. this is your fault, maybe you should kiss her hand mm kind-hearted people! This time, the main hall where the front seat of three meters, you have to look at the flowers on! rl District some money, how can I take it to heart! rl brains Jiuhaola, r Lelin rhetoric. The next morning, a sincere and touching letter along with a bouquet of flowers sent to the magnificent Hoy Street. If get a reply from her, nice ah! any response will do. when he objects to kiss her ecstatically written word of each line. After eight days, the mail room door opened and repeatedly in shut, another opened, valve broke. landlady yells. He does not face the two eyes, dark circles deeper; he looked really emaciated. look in the mirror, he was shocked, and later Advantages and Disadvantages to crying. l you, Kleiner, r Lelin one day and said resolutely, l can no longer go on like this. you really had become increasingly frustrated. must take action. tomorrow you just with her there. r He put a pair of sad eyes wide open. l hh on her altogether there hhr l ��. rl hey, it can not, she would not accept me. rl write a stupid after all. We can guess right away that she is not your prime met, will not immediately write to you. you have to dry mm crisp on her where to go. If she had one day to greet you, you of happiness was. then you in her eyes was not a nuisance. when she will not easily put you away. mm you go tomorrow. r dizzy he could hear. l I can not go tomorrow, r he said softly. l There is no way for you this! r Lelin angry. l you do not see her so that they are bored by herself in the heart! After waking up from a deep sleep, open the windows, the original spring comes. the sky is very bright and clean, light blue, as if revealing a warm smile. the air filled with the sweet aroma. He was in the spring, smell it, taste to it, see it, hear it. He is full of all the senses are the vitality of spring. In his view, the sun outside the house seems to be a Road to light tremor in his heart, so that he was conscious, give him encouragement . So he silently kissed her photo, wearing a clean shirt and clothes that fit, and then shave the beard stubble repair, went to Hoy Street. Then suddenly his heart seemed rare calm, even he has become almost more than surprised. He remained calm. When he set foot on the stairs, standing on her doorstep, in the card to see l Irma. Vail Turner r words, he remained poised, as if already a new person. a thought suddenly flashed in his mind: He could there be crazy, he wanted to do? by no one saw him, not as good as here and now to go back. With the last sound timid moan, he just kind of lost mood finally swept away. when he's full of confidence beyond a reasonable doubt. In the past he has been worried, preoccupied, as a reminder by the drowsy eyes, like surgery, but now it has become free, excited joy, determination, goal Lang correct. spring! pound out the clock in the building sound like a broken gong. A maid came to open the door. l do miss home? r asked his graceful. l hh at home, but I ask you hhr l look here. r He business card given to him. When she walked with a business card, he simply followed in the post, the heart can not help but laugh wildly. When the maid to give young mistress, putting the card, he has been holding a hat standing upright in the room . This is a sort of a small room, furnished in a spare, the furniture is dark gray color. That girl had a chair sitting in the window, then stood up. on a small table beside her book, appears to have put aside. he has never seen her so charming, and she did not play any role in that beautiful as in reality. slender body, and wearing a gray dress, trimmed chest is more elegant, looked plain, elegant and generous. Her forehead wears a lock of golden curls network. May the sun shone on it, like the tremor sparkling wildly. He was ecstatic and excited. when she was surprised to look a business card, and later even more surprised when I looked at him, he quickly took two steps toward her, with anxious and enthusiastic words to express their warm feelings of yearning. l hey, you do not will not be angry with me hh gas, right? affectionately call him sitting in a chair, and he sat down. Then he stammered go: l You see, I say what is a person who is always in the heart are what hh can not hide, so I beg you hh why you did not answer a word actually me, Miss? r he interrupted the conversation, very sincere attitude. l I can not tell you that ah mm, r she answered smiling, l you to it words of praise and beautiful flowers, I'm sincerely happy, but, hh hh that does not make me right I really have no way to know hh hh visit without your permission, you do not really angry with me, right hhr l hey, how do I get angry it! r she is a fine acting by the people, in order to prevent the embarrassment of the ice, and hastened to add that: l you to P was near the city, right? rl has six weeks to seven weeks, miss. rl so long? I thought, you see me acting is only one and a half weeks, then I just received your letter that friendly. rl not, Miss! almost every night I see you acting! What is the role you are, I see! rl Oh, why do not you come to it earlier? r innocent and surprised she asked. l I could come early you? r he answered flirt. He can sit opposite her heart to heart talk, feel indescribably happy. He felt his position so incomprehensible, it can not help but fear, fear will, as before from a sweet sad to wake up sleep. He was exceptional comfort, almost like a contented to put up his legs, and later that fun, wait crouched all this cheering hh acting stupid! how I cherish you! how nostalgic you ! some of her fair face bright red, the reply to his cheerful spirits. l Please forgive mm You misunderstand me. I was not very clever words, your understanding can not be too slow to Miss O hhr l, from now on I strive to be more sensitive and understanding hhr him up very excited and can not be themselves. answer, he re-wrote these words again and again, she sat there! She sat there! he was by her side! him repeatedly in bracing, to recognize their true face has lost, carried away his eyes again and again in her face and body wander hh Yes, this is her light blond hair, her sweet mouth children, some of her soft little tendency to double chin; here is her crisp, childlike voice, her elegant and touching conversation, at the moment is not in the theater, slightly accented dialect in southern Germany. Now, she no longer pondering his The last sentence answer, but once again pick up the card table, again carefully mm familiar with his name in his dreams like the rain that is often pair kissed the hand of a pair of fantastic real estate broker, and her pupil of the eye and stare him again at the moment. seen from the expression, she felt for him more and more deeper! she his fervor; to this, they continued to chat for a question and answer. sometimes stop to chat to a relaxed pull each other's feelings about birth, the work and Irma. Vail Turner all played roles. for her understanding of the various roles of l r, praise him in every possible way, of course, even though she herself laughed some humility , said he understood of the role of l r not deep opaque. in her laughter, you can hear a little kind of tone when the theater, but he was overjoyed, Fucking high, so innocent and looked up her intimate one's face to. he could see God, and wait for them to immediately knelt down and sincere confession to her inner feeling of deep and sincere love. for a whole hour later, he finally panic-stricken look at the table, stood up quickly. l I delay so much of your time, Vail, Miss Turner! You should have sent me away! you later will slowly realize that to a person on your side, time is a very decent hhr his manner, even his unexpected himself. girls who as a young artist, now almost admire him. he was from the heart of the compliment, and more and show his heart and upright, pure in heart. l time is it now? why you want to gone? r she was surprised and asked, some melancholy, tone and attitude than before when on the stage as more realistic and convincing. l Dear God, I have you to drag long enough! full hour ! rl hey no! For me, time flies! r said she shouted, at the moment more than she really surprised. l have an hour? that I've got brewing in the minds of the new role, and tonight to perform it. you go to the theater tonight it? rehearsal, I also not too sure which. director almost beat me out for it! rl when I kill him then? r he said solemnly. l its tomorrow, not as Today! r her laugh, say goodbye to him hand side. Then he bent over impulsive passion, put his lips close to her hands greedily long kiss, kiss one side, one hand deep in thought, on the bird real estate broker reluctantly, opponents circulated the aroma and the here and can not help but ecstasy. she quickly retracted his hand. When he looked up from her look, he felt her face with a perplexed expression. maybe He should feel happy for this, but he thought that his improper behavior that she had gas, the moment felt panicky. l piece for your kindness to me, Miss Turner, Weir, r he quickly said, than the before the even more polite, l I sincerely thank you. rl welcome. with you to get to know, I am very pleased. rl is that right? r now he said, speaking in good faith before that. l Miss, there is a request You will not refuse it, that is hh I still want to see you once more. rl, of course! hh that is sure to come hh hh why not to do? r some a little embarrassed when she said. Just now, he kissed her hand ingenuity , at the moment seems a bit out of date the request. l Can I talk to you while your days are very pleased. r her calm and friendly to add the phrase, once again reach out to him. l Thanks so much! r he was owed the bow, and then came to the door. When he did not see her, he felt himself like being in a dream. He felt her hand in his left hand and his lips the heat. Then he was conscious to all living reality, and he that bold, highly original dream of true happiness. drunk as he staggered down the stairs like to go sideways against the railing, touched You Mo, and joy in kissed some railings up and down. Here, in a slightly indented from the street at the front of the house, there is a small garden or garden-like space, is about a bunch of short and the clove, the tree just blossoming lilac bloom. Then he-stop body, face hidden in the blazing bush faint cold, greedily inhaling the aroma of fresh here, my heart fluttered. Oh, how he loved to ah! When He went into the restaurant, Le Lin and the other three have been completed two of the young people a good meal for a while. He appears to be very excited to greet a hurry to play with them, sit down. a few minutes, he sat still Zhiyi Sheng only exposed one by one own child smile at them these people, they sat smoking, do not know what the inside story, he knew it Qingqing funny. l kids! r he suddenly screamed, bent down at the table. l Do you know the news? my lucky day! rl Aha! r Lelin grunted, his face staring at eloquently. Then he solemnly held out his hand across the table to go to him. l a warm congratulations to you, I wish you happy, Kleiner. rl why are you so? rl friends how do you? rl ha ha, you do not know miles. which today is his birthday. his birthday. Look at him, as he does not like you born? rl cough! rl Oh! rl Congratulations! rl you, of course, true that the hhr l! hh waiter Come on! r he knows how to celebrate his birthday, which is his due rights. him with anxious mood so helplessly a week, then come see her. She has made a commitment to this. first met when the shy love in his heart all the excitement caused by the moment is gone. Now, they meet and the number of times to talk more and more. She allowed him to often go to. they free to chat, either talk to the middle of a sudden sometimes awkward and constrained situation, is almost regarded as harmonious. When this situation occurs , and both anxiety panic felt vaguely uneasy, and the mood is usually shown on them at the same time. At such moments, the conversation suddenly stopped, a second between. They just quietly looked at each other, which just as After the first kiss on the hand so that all of a sudden after a conversation with each other become more stiff and formal. After the performance several times, he permits her to accompany her home. spring evening, when he leaned in to her Walking the streets, he is really happiness! in front of her home for his heartfelt thanks to his hospitality, he kissed her hand, With both joy, and gratitude journey home. One night, he said goodbye to her after a few steps away from the place where she turned to go. Then he saw her still standing at the door, it seems that on the ground looking for something. in his imagination, as if, because of her son to see him turned quickly , suddenly put on a look too l pose of what I saw you all last night! r Le Lin once said to him. l Kleiner, please accept my respect for it. Up to now, probably no one who could take her walk. You're a first-rate guy. can simultaneously and you are a fool, she is also no way to give you more of friendship. You're a Mr. Dao! She must have been silly in love with you! you or quickly wake up now! r there for a moment, he looked dazed Lelin. and then to suddenly realize, said: l hey, do not say! r fighting a war his whole body. Soon, spring has been very strong the. coming five end of the month, was the hot weather to take even a drop of rain has not. Meng Yang gray, overcast sky, overlooking the dry land, Australia and the heat generated during the day, one night, more stifling, the while weakly to the wind, the more Jiaoren was stuffy and hot. One evening, the weather as well. we the honest young man in the outside garden in a hilly walk alone. He can not stand it at home. He was sick, hungry to miss her; because before all happiness, he thought he had satisfied this desire. But now, he had to moan and groan all day long to miss her. He also begging for more! This is the Le Lin caused the May non-Manchester ��. but his heart better than plum non-Lancaster, and cultivation was badly. �� sea of non-Manchester: Goethe masterpiece intuition mm I can not say how the matter ended hh he sighed, see his pale face and up. He first used crude words, the real problem plainly pointed out to him, otherwise, everything is wrapped in a layer of pale blue smoke in it! in this hot weather , he was so tired and cross with the pace went ahead and move farther and farther. the way he often smell the aroma of jasmine, but could not find a jasmine tree. when Jasmine still will not bloom, but he got to the outdoors, always tastes smell of jasmine, intoxicating aroma. leaning against the wall like a small road slope, slope length with several strains of sporadic trees. the path to the corner with a bench . He sat down at the bench, staring straight ahead. the path of the other side of a tilt-down dry grass, the grass beneath a river meanders through. river stretched straight ahead, at the other side of the road, the two sides is a row of poplar. over there, along the purple horizon, there is a heavy farm vehicle, the forward drove alone. He sat in front to stay stare, even not daring to move about, because nothing else happened. And he had a strong smell of jasmine aroma! the whole world is sending out a mist, it is very heavy. silence is a hot and humid, arouses a strong desire. He was to be receive any form of liberation, in any place to get free, and let hungry himself and nature to wash in a shower after stormy satisfied hh when he saw the girl in the front surface, wearing the ancient elegance clothing, Yubi thin and white, they must be soft, cool hh faint hesitation and then he stood up, faster and faster to set foot on the road back to the city when he unwittingly stand hh destination in the door, my heart suddenly Mengqi a moment of fear. Now night fell, around him, darkness and stillness. At such moments, with only occasional individuals in rural area. the sky has many stars Yingyingchaochao, a near- cyclic the moon hanging high. distant, dismal given the light gas stoves. He stood in front of her house mm No, he did not want to go!, but inside there is something that will force him to go, even he himself knew. at the moment When he stood there motionless, looking at the moon, his heart still is, the location also did the same. I do not know from where the light shining from more. lights from upstairs to the room from the fourth floor in a shot past the open window. It would appear that she did not act on the theater, she stayed at home, no rest. He began to cry. He leaned against the fence began to cry, miserable everywhere. the earth and quiet and thirst, and the moon was so dark green days. He cried for a long time, because this solution while his thirst, while a clear head, may be granted for a place free. And then his eyes drier than before, more heat . His whole body has hardened, and looked uneasy. He is not non-moan, to yield to it mm mm to yield right hh mm! No! not give in, but should be mm! he straightened up. His muscles swell. a silent, a touch of pain washed away his power again. But still tired to yield better results. He weak to hold the door of her home door handle, and slowly shuffled up the stairs. maid saw him visit at such a time, surprised not help, but she said that just miss home. He, she no longer had informed the hostess; knocking at the door, he quickly put himself on the living room Irma The door opened. he did not know their own doing. He does not go in the living room door, but leave the door open to let things slide; as if the weakness, he can not hold the door handle, as if the inevitability of a silent serious and almost sad in the waving gesture, command and he stood there. he feels there is some independent, thoughtful ideas in defiance of this silent, powerful commands to start suffering the ideological struggle inside. yield to it, yield it This may be correct that necessity mm. He heard a knock at the door after the Qing Ke, seems to want cleared his throat to speak, and then she heard him walking towards me. When her heart with a deep gray, bewildered, silent fight the pain, and her delicate fingers twitching in his hands, he saw her long silk-like eyelashes slowly, heavy to shed tear or two. Then he horror to put two hands on the chest, with a distraught voice shouted up, but also to bite the throat: l hh I can not bear to see you cry! called I can not stand! r she lifted her small face drained of color head and looked at him, So they lock eyes for eyes have been each other's perspective to the soul. from the two eyes, the shows that they have fallen in love with each other. They are no longer shy, buried in the heart of joy despair of love, then finally broke out of spark. devotion to the body when they are young to hug, snapping quivering lips for the first time to turn to faint long day kiss, from an open window in the into the fragrance of lilac, red at the moment is how ah smelling aroma. He took her delicate, almost slender body help up, opened his mouth to say to each other how to murmured words of love. and then place one thing, his whole body trembling strangely. She would have thought that he was accustomed to in the coy love is a supreme virtue Ni mm in romance, he has always felt very awkward, there is no capability mm, at the moment In his continuous kiss, her original ideas began to shake the night he woke up ... hh